What is your wish?

I am the Gothic Fairy.
Happy Halloween [in 2 hours]
girls are stupid. stupid stupid.

SLeEp WaLKinG...

the day drags on..
nothing to feel but the constant ache, the ever-lasting cold--then heat--then cold... like walking is hell, to breathe [such heavy breath] is a burden..
Play it safe. Stay intact. Keep composure. Don't lose it.
Keep from creating your own destruction...
Destruction is a form of Creation and CrEaTION is a most beautiful thing and FiRe is a beautiful s-o-u-n-d
TO BuRN is to live Let me live
just once let me sleep to a flaming sunset
wake to a frozen sunrise
sunrise, sunset sunrise, sunset
sunrise, sunset DUSK.
--you look so hard at the goal that you lose sight of it. i don't want to be in this deep anymore, please, someone wake me..

Ode a tu..

BLACK NAILS [no visitors]

melt away the sky and its stars the moon and the sun you'll kill everyone still we try to impress we try to undress we'll run to a dark city hold hands and be illegal why do you want things to die? leave them to darkness and CRY raindrops on the window hypnosis sets in longing to be part of something SOMETHING WORTHWHILE *HaNDPriNTs on tHe wINDow* car in park, a foggy misty night ~back on the road. slam on the breaks --kisses at every stoplight-- LOcked away, uncertain tradgedy every pleading scream gone mute

LOOK AT THE STARS
LoOk At ThE sTaRs
look at the stars

Softest of lips my skin begs for you... loss of the senses Nothing was real but you.
Nothing compares.
A smile, one touch, freckles showing in the hot sun a kiss...

The girl has gone mad

Nothing to say that is not more or less of that expected.
Drowning in the sun
swimming in the cool air
I am not besotted
..What a burden..

Tony Moany Schmony

idontwaitfor420: remember when everthing is said and done, and after the dust clears, you will be standing tall, and you will still be beautiful

Tony is the greatest of greats. You are someone who truly effects me in a positive light. I hope we continue to be friends, you are a dear one.

blaaaaaah

you don't call.
"i love you" sounds so dull.
i see you, you want one thing.
remember when we could talk
4 months and you're stoned.
i'm home dying.
things..they dont last, do they?

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i wish you..i wish you understood..i..i wish it could be different..i wish..i wish i could break this..seeing no expression left behind in your face from the days we [wasted] spent...i wish you weren't so cold?..yes and that you could care... Why do I care..nothing there..nothing..you..

I can only speak bROKEn for that is how i FEEL. bROKEn and wITherEd aWaY to that which is Nooo Mooore. And everything's the same. And everything has changed.

Pitch BLACK and only 7:40. The girl's gone sick, the boy's not even thinking of her..but the bottle in his hand and his drugs but not her but hes all that shes dreaming of...

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MONO!!!

everything dissapeared today..

fuck EVery single WorD I ever said. Everything is a lie. everyone is a LiE. Love? there is no love. to say you care for someone..dirt. everything withered away into dust today. everything i ever believed in.
8:27 pm..life ceased to exist..

THE WALL

I just believe in you so much
Losing sleep over this..

always on my mind..

Another day in this life so blind..
As you come around everything else just falls apart..a girl so willing to put everything on the line for a boy so unwilling it kills her..
A boy with the ability to turn a girl so in love into dreadfullness is just..I can't even begin to fathom..--WAiT-- yeah, I CAN.
All I know is, it'll take some getting used to..last time I saw you it was kissy and scary movies in a darkened room. Now here I lay..in some darkened room..just dying for one more hint of that smile..BeG for it..OnCE MOrE..
ThingS..they FaDE..i knOw..

bright angel

Today was eventful..

I missed you SO much, kid. DON'T EVER LEAVE US AGAIN, YOU HEAR ME!?! And get some rest, lord knows you haven't slept in days..Give those thoughts a rest, will you?

Don't worry about CrAzY me..I just need sometime to get used to this whole..--different-- thing with you..all I know is it meant the WoRlD to me seeing you today!! Be GOOD!!

La la La la La..

The stars are brighter tonight, it seems..The light exists once more and I can finally breathe for the first time in WEeKs..I don't know what to do or think exept..I misseD you..

~Bright Angel~

wessels

welcome home, love youu

Here in MidDle AmERiCa..

I can't forget. I can't..bring myself to..I just..You were..amazing..I..this..everything was so unplanned, so spontanious with you..I liked it that way..my depth perception was far off..

Here I am obsessing..here it is regressing..all of us depressing..heal it by undressing..try to be impressing..locked away, distressing..

~anything goes. any time, any place. at least that's how you used to be~

[]thrown away[] take these faded stars off my eyes, sweep them away from my troubled memory..

We AlL WanT sOMeTHing BeaUtiFUL..

no inspiration.. UNmeaningful: You BreAK me apARt And You ARen'T EvEN HEre.. [for you]

a Faded [lost] StAr...

As day turns to night and the sun ceases to burn on our side of the world, the slow realization that To Care is To Hurt is beginning to seep into my heart.

As night turns to early morning and the stars fade away as if they were in fact never even there I begin to wonder what we are living for. Are we honestly cursed to this vicious cycle of dying inside and tearing ourselves apart to feel Love? We Are. Everyone is looking for the answer, but on a night like this I come to think that there Is No Answer. Or perhaps the answer is as I said: To Care is To Hurt.

I cannot allow myself to live this way anymore. I cannot let myself roam this earth feeling this way anymore. What I am trying to say..I cannot care for you anymore.

As much as I try [and try and try] to get around it, there is just no doing so. I luv you Daniel, and I miss you so much, but it seems I will have to miss you more until, like the stars, the feeling fades.

God take away the pain. Sweep these tears away, not for me but for Everyone. The Girl was right..We don't need to fight in a time like this, and everyone -does- need to pull together. And I'm sorry for not being able to handle this. But I cannot. And I will not.
Breaking my own heart to save his..

EVErythINg YOu LEfT BEhINd..

Some people can be absolutely ridiculous. I mean, one minute they're crying and whining on and on about a past lover leaving them blind in the dust. Things tend to go from one extreme to another. I wouldn't neccessarily be angered by this..an explanation isn't really in order..so I won't supply one.
In any case..I miss you SO much. I hope you're okay, I'm thinking about you constantly..Worrying..waiting..
Why wait for an answer when it's clear in front of your face..
::he is gone::
Should've said something, BUt I've said it enough..by the way your hands were shaking...I'd rather [spend] some time with you...
!!Insensitive BITCH!!
--shirt--ring--lighter--blackshoes--hatebreed--words--thursday--

For You...

close your eyes
the dark outside can't hurt you
and i will never desert your bedside
so close them tight
the stars are so glad that they've found you
and on the blankets that surround you
they shine their light
they shine their light
rest your head and i will be watching from the doorway
as you drift into a perfect, peaceful sleep
and morning will come in all its simple glory
and you will find the light
and i will be there
standing in your shadow
knowing that you once were mine
all mine
my baby

I'm not your star..

Oh god. the air around me so THICK I CANNOT BARE TO TAKE A SINGLE BREATH. To think of you cold and shivering in a wet cell, shaking and mumbling wondering how to get out..
How could you DO THIS? WHat could have POSSIBLY been going through your head to think that this was a good idea..WHAT? Times like these I think everyone is going insane..It's like no one cares anymore and everyone is so wrapped up in THEIR problems. But going out and doing what you did does not settle anything [in the off chance that THAT was what you could have been thinking]
I need to get away for a while, but I need to see your face. Are you okay? Are you alive? SHouLD you be alive?
I'm sorry for those things I said..I say things I don't [and didn't and never will] mean..
I refuse to write another single word until this is settled...